Breathe

There's snow upon the gravesite Are you cold down there my love?  I know it's just your body And you're spirit's up above I wish you'd left in summertime Or maybe in the spring But leaving in the winter I fear you'll feel the icy sting If I'm cold then you must be I mean, how could you not?  I still can't believe you're gone It feels like I've been shot I hope you're looking down on me In your dancing and your song I'm sure you're happy where you are But this whole thing feels wrong Momma can't stop missing you And dad needs time to breathe The sisters want the rest of us And our brother struggles to grieve Your husband needs your sweet embrace Your baby needs your smile Your best friend thinks she's missing half Your guy friend's in denial We cling to all your photos Your clothes, your memories, your face It's never going to be enough It's like you've been replaced Now I'm watching snowflakes fall As they ...

February 24th, 2023 was the worst day of my life. It's the day I went from 6 sisters to 4. And it's the day I feel I lost absolutely everything.  2 of my sisters were involved in a car accident that took their lives, and none of us will ever be the same. Our family is closer than most, and I can honestly say I've never been more angry then right now. People are supposed to die in their 90s, not at 20 and 22. I'll be honest, I have not opened my bible since the accident, and the only time I've prayed was to yell. And I wouldn't even call it praying, just yelling in any direction. He took my sisters and I'm struggling to see a reason why. I don't. One of my sisters mentioned for closure she needed to see the girls. We could only see one, but that's what she needed to know they were truly gone. I realized tonight I need more. Mom says she can see the effect. She can see how it's touched and moved people, but raw moment of honesty, I don't care. ...